don't ever give up on the ones you love.

I just realize how extremely important this is.
and also how difficult it is to do.
if they say, love gives you strength you didn't even know you have,
I would say love also gives challenges you never know you would face,
I am arguable, at any point.

but I also realized that there is no such thing as "hopeless". everything is possible. everything, everyone - is hopeful.
we are relying on hope to live each day, aren't we?
so how the heck did I come with a conclusion that someone can be so hopeless and helpless?
how could I have placed myself in the position as the one who aren't meant to mend her?
perhaps even if I wasn't the one who's going to change this person for the better, I could at least stay close to her as a friend, couldn't I?
whoa, getting a little ahead of myself there.
yes, I'm finally sharing stories.
this is a story about a dear friend of mine, who I lost along the way.
not because I can't help it, but because I - more or less, stopped believing in her.
and how sad is that?
she was one of the few people I really trust, and she is not an easy person ( let me tell you ), but then again I'm not easy either.
this is a problem I think I've experienced for some time,
I keep finding the worst in people and make the choices on my own whether I would carry on with those unbelievable characters or leave it be.
I need to remind myself that I am no God, and these choices I keep on making are absurd and absolutely ridiculous.
I wouldn't want anyone to give up on me, would I?
and yet I keep giving up on people.
strike two. one year.
I can honestly tell you that I am just the worst possible human being on Earth sometimes.
and I could be an idiot, too.
no, I'm not pitying up on myself - I'm just trying to state a fact here.

and yes, I do regret.
that's the worst part.
and the fact that I'm a normal human being doesn't help either.
I just hope that the choices I've made, will make - they will all be good ones that will lead me to a good place. and benefit the ones who are involved as well.
I don't think I'd mind me hurting, I just can't stand other people's pain.
especially my loved ones.
but sometimes it's so easy to hurt the ones you love...

anyway...

here's what I am trying to tell each and everyone of you,
first of all, everyone isn't as good as they pretend to be. they have their faults and flaws, and that's good - it makes them human.
the worst part would be when they crossed the line, when they get to your nerve, when they annoy the hell out of you 'till you can't stand it anymore,
but does it mean you should give up on them? NO.
cause you don't know, you might be the one person leading them to be a better person.
or if you're not the one, you can still try, can't you?
if you really care about someone, you'd do it.
if you don't, then you don't.
it's as simple as that.
before you say you love someone and then ended up giving up on them, you might want to do a recheck there.
I know we all have enough of our own problems to deal with,
but what's dear to you shall never be a burden,
they shall be challenges that you will conquer,
the ones you'll look back to and say, "oh I was there, it wasn't good. but I am here now."
if you have believed in them in the first place,
then don't ever, ever stop.